What else's new? ..sarcasm alert

[ihmn]

The awkwardly weird thing is that I need just the right mindset to not to be preoccupied with something as stupid as future impending death. If everything is sweet, I quickly drift to "aah, and it can't last forever", if trouble surrounds me like bully punks, it's just "death, death, okay, I'm bored...", if I'm either extremely overexcited in the present (which is rare and definitely not close to anything ideal) or sort of alright and sort of bummed, it's 'safe', that is.
It makes me feel ridiculous, odd and human. Human, for fuck's sake. Aw, and I don't like using swear-words..!

I APOLOGISE FOR MY POSTS BEING SO SHORT AND FREQUENT!